I am Always, but more when I want to be.
This is not
I am here
I think more
They want me
Why should I
and then some?
How can I
You know it’s a bad thing. But, You like the notereity and perks. And, You will do or say anything to save your position.
I know I have to go,
but I Don’t want to go anywhere
Am I ready to?
I Don’t know,
but I’ll get there sometime
I imagine how it’ll be
And I’m cool with that
I am In it
I am in the moment
Until I realize that moment is now
And then, I want to get out
I know I have to go,
but I Don’t want to go anywhere
Where should I stand
for You to see Me?
How loud do I have to Be
for You to feel my glee?
What designer must I wear
to be taken seriously?
What part of Me must I tear
for You to sense My depth immensely?
Who should I emulate
in order to be compared?
Who’s face should I resemble
to prove I have a real dimple?
When will be the best time
to take Dr. Seuss out of rhyme?
When should I expect
my actions to be of derilect?
Why am I considered racist
just because I’ve never had a facelift?
Why can’t I raise my fist
if I want to make the good list?
How can I make You see
if at first You can’t believe?
How can your senses be covered
when You had nine months to be mothered?
How do I say, “No”
before I break my own heart?
Do I have to go along
with it all until You tell me,
“It’s not working”?
Or must I lose my fire
because all the matches I had
are now immersed under water?
Would I have relearn how to cry?
Maybe I would stutter
How can I mess up a simple word
that could either strengthen me
or the one thing that could cause me
to crumble before all those who I knew
were laughing at me in my face
while shaking their pathetic heads?
I want to be better
I should be better
I can be better
than what I have here now
There is a world outside of this shell
that wants to know me well
to see me well
to see me do well
and grow along with Me
So, I have to say, “No,”
before I am no longer able to
I gave you a piece of Me
and you can keep it
But I will feed it and make it grow back
fuller, stronger, and more productive
All by myself
until I am able to say, “Yes,”
again without hesitation
without a You who wants nothing
out of life
I want to feel my heart beating
everywhere like a walking orgasm
because I want
because I desire
and not just give
to someone unwilling to learn
how to love back
I have to be selfish
Now, when I face you,
that “No,” means that I have turned
On I am
On I will be
Alive, valuable, worthy, and somebody
TTBoy Says: Will Jada and Will Smith ever come out for an Award?
TTBoy Says: Sarah Silverman is a total genius to be so talented while actually being demented.
TTBoy Says: Zoloft is better than Prozac.
TTBoy Says: Nadine Parker of Clay, NY is unlike any other person on Earth.
TTBoy Says: Is Lori Grenier really pretty?
TTBoy Says: Haven’t You ever been screwed by the Church?
TTBoy Says: Priests wearing robes should prove they’re wearing underwear each service.
TTBoy Says: Is the NAACP still singling out brighter-skinned Black people for awards?
TTBoy Says: We’ve had a Black President. Why not get ready for a Cuban?
TTBoy Says: The Most Underrated Black Actress is Black. The Most Overrated White Actress is White.
TTBoy Says: Hollywood is falling apart and coming together in Santa Monica.
TTBoy Says: Men were wearing purses long before women were.
TTBoy Says: “Finding Your Roots” seem to be an honest show.
TTBoy Says: Voting Polls are just a distraction
TTBoy Says: Jeb Bush has proven that he’s not his Brother.
TTBoy Says: Hilary Clinton could be a dominatrix after her meetings and interviews.
TTBoy Says: Is the Zika Virus the new AIDS?
TTBoy Says: Celebrities don’t all practice the same religion. But, their God tells them to do really strange things.
TTBoy Says: Inter-racial couples hate each other during times of Race Relations.
TTBoy Says: How do good-looking men with small penises really feel about themselves?
TTBoy Says: “The Wandering Womb” Women who sleep around don’t get that.
TTBoy Says: Is it taboo for a boy to see his father’s penis, but girls can see their Mom’s boobs?
TTBoy Says: Do you wonder if the heroin addicts in New Hampshire have fibromyalgia?
TTBoy Says: Will somebody please create a show specifically for J-Lo?
TTBoy Says: Beware of women who pull their checkbooks out at the supermarket just after she is given the total.
TTBoy Says: Does Katy Perry do kegel exercises?
TTBoy Says: Models just don’t look like they’re starving anymore.
TTBoy Says: Did Michael Jackson really own 50 percent of SONY Music?
TTBoy Says: Do most girls want to be just like their mothers?
TTBoy Says: Will Blacks exclude Stacey Dash from Black History or will she be forever scorned and cursed to the coldest part of Hell?
TTBoy Says: Is Bill O’Reilly smarter than Bill Maher?
TTBoy Says: Why are more White men entering the world of Transgenderism? Could this be the reason Republicans are so Anti-Abortion?
TTBoy Says: “Okay,” is the most thrown around word.
TTBoy Says: Do 74-year old alcoholics know they’re drunk?
TTBoy Says: You should always know that when a classy, pretty girl or woman excuse themselves to go to the restroom, they’re going to pass gas.
TTBoy Says: Why do Alisha Tyler and Julie Chen look like they could be a real-life couple?
TTBoy Says: You can always tell bad lovers with no exes. They don’t have stalkers.
TTBoy Says: What does Natasha Trethewey do for a living outside of her own?
TTBoy Says: Why do some people consider Sylvia Plath to be a hero?
TTBoy Says: It’s sad that the best thing for pain is sleep. Or an action that will make you so sedentary till you won’t ever want to move.
TTBoy Says: Should Senators and Councilmen be drug-tested for their paychecks?
TTBoy Says: When using someone else’s bathroom, always call somebody into the bathroom after you’ve used it so they can take part of the blame for not lifting the toilet seat.
TTBoy Says: Martin O’Malley was the only candidate that looked like a real President.
TTBoy Says: Has Cuba Gooding, Jr. had cosmetic surgery?
TTBoy Says: The best way to not take yourself too seriously is to wear the cheapest blouse and pant outfit to an event and let your boobs do all the talking.
TTBoy Says: Is Chelsea Handler still drunk?
TTBoy Says: Which will fade first, Jenny McCarthy’s mouth or her looks?
TTBoy Says: Does Melissa McCarthy have a sex tape?
TTBoy Says: Did Leo say, “No,” to Lady Gaga?
TTBoy Says: If Black is hated so much, why is it the only accepted color, for men, at award shows?
TTBoy Says: Did Sarah Palin really believe she would be Trump’s running-mate?
TTBoy Says: Would you tell a woman she smelled like pee after she hugged you? Would you hug her again when she got ready to leave?
TTBoy Says: Is the show, “What Would You Do?” getting corny?
TTBoy Says: ‘Tis better to Give. There could be a live snake in the box.
TTBoy Says: How many “Owws” are permitted when you begin anal sex?
TTBoy Says: People who sing while sneezing are afraid of the dark.
TTBoy Says: Most people close their eyes when their doctor stands behind them.
TTBoy Says: Wouldn’t it be nice to have a Child’s Oscars? No parents allowed. Only talent.
TTBoy Says: Even guys who dye their carpet forget to dye their drapes.
TTBoy Says: Would Whoopi Goldberg ever play the part of a fat, White crackhead?
TTBoy Says: Six degrees of separation…Ted Cruz could be related to Grandpa from The Munsters.
TTBoy Says: Richard Dreyfuss will never be on the same acting level as Robert Deniro.
TTBoy Says: Can you imagine a calm World with marijuana legally lit up everywhere?
TTBoy Says: Fisting comes in all forms. There are women who like to get fisted. Somewhere.
TTBoy Says: Be kind to the Pole Dancers. It takes a lot of courage to constantly go up and down on something so filthy without using hand-sanitizer afterwards.
TTBoy Says: Have you ever had an accident in a dream and woke up only to hurt the same body part but in a different way?
TTBoy Says: Do cat people smell worse than bird people?
TTBoy Says: Did a Black girl in Albany, NY really throw the first punch on the school bus surround by White students?
TTBoy Says: Should the Governor of Flint, Michigan himself be responsible for the water crisis?
TTBoy Says: Why are the last 15 minutes of the News just filler stuff?
TTBoy Says: Stop accepting people’s excuses and apologies for not having common sense. Just tell them how stupid they are and walk away.
TTBoy Says: Is Valerie Harper still alive?
TTBoy Says: Do you have to be Kenny Leon’s friend first before you get a part?
TTBoy Says: Is Celine Dion really “The Best Singer in the World?”
TTBoy Says: Even after it has been determined that Jesus was a Black man, “Gods of Egypt” is still being distributed.
TTBoy Says: Has Bill Cosby ever had ‘Spanish Fly’?
TTBoy Says: How did racism start in the northern part of the East coast?
TTBoy Says: If a boy wants to marry a girl just like his Mom, does that mean he wants to impregnate his mother?
TTBoy Says: Every boy fantasizes about how he was conceived.
TTBoy Says: The voices are on the outside trying to get in. Nothing starts within.
TTBoy Says: No matter where you put them, take your suppository out before sex.
TTBoy Says: The best way to tell that a woman hasn’t had sex in a long time, see if she’s eating Weight Watchers. She might even have stock in the company.
TTBoy Says: Could the real reason the Obama girls are so well-mannered be because they walked in on their parents having sex?
TTBoy Says: Will Ke$ha ever recover and make music again?
TTBoy Says: The majority of single men do have at least one vibrator.
TTBoy Says: Will we ever stop quoting dead poets and keep the living ones alive?
TTBoy Says: Is Bernie Sanders ready to throw a tantrum in the White House?
TTBoy Says: People are angry, scared, and frustrated. And it’s all because they are constipated.
TTBoy Says: Are you still considered a Good Parent when your child sneaks out of the house to be with someone who’s completely wrong for them?
TTBoy Says: Are Dads bigger perverts than Moms?
TTBoy Says: Black Churches know they have to accept homosexuality. And quickly!
What does it matter
That we weren’t fed with a silver spoon
Or that we didn’t hear the clatter
When the cow jumped over the moon?
What does it matter
That we left home without an umbrella
Saw other kids laughing then to scatter
At the sight of a burly fella?
What does it all mean
When some have more
The price they paid for all that green
Could have made their hearts more sore
Do you think about
the meaning of life?
Could you have taken a different route
And become someone’s devoted wife?
Even if you tried to live
According to the Bible
If your mission was just to give
No one could hold you libel
But, when it’s said and done
Did you find a least one friend
One who could turn gloom into sun
And promise to be there In the end?
I found someone
Who feels just like me
Lying softly under the sun
Face up minus a tree
Whenever the wind sings
That someone turns around
So cold it stings
Changing its beauty brown
Don’t know if it fell gracefully
Or if it was laid there
Admidst all the green tastefully
Yet, alone without care
For that is my double
I know this to be true
Onward, there is trouble
To be blown away, who knew?
I found someone
Who feels like me
If only I could run
I could be safe under a tree